04 May 2010

A Leader
Humble yet not proud,
Patient yet not demanding
Criticised but not praised,
Frustrated but doesn't show
Protects his men,
but not himself

A leader serves.

I guess what my close bro yst said was right. I too felt that way. Ever since i stepped up and taken the position of a leader, so many things have changed. I remembered the days where everyone of us was carefree, just dancing happily, and enjoying being in each other company. I miss those days bigbig time. Things seem to be so different now, since our priorities are different. I wish, I could enjoy those whacky times with my dance mates all over again.

I know I'm trying my best with my mates to do things for the good of the club. But who sees the work that we do? People base their judgement on results, not the efforts, or the process. No matter how much work you put in, if the result is a failure, you get condemned and criticised. If your result is a success, people soak themselves in the atmosphere, but you will not get praised or encouraged. I've learnt all this through what God has gone through during His hardship. I don't blame anyone for what I am going through, or the things I am going through, because the people around me won't know as I dont open up to people. I simply have lost trust in the people around me. Now i know why people would rather turn to blog to make their feelings known.

But i do enjoy whatever i am doing now. I am learning day by day. I love criticisms, cos that's how i learn. I love going through hardships, because i know i will be stronger by the end of the day. And most impt, i miss my friends and the fun times we had. Please dont let our different priorties affect our friendships.

Nic "Nikz" Phua danced away @
2:22 AM

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03 May 2010

Well, I guess those who have spoken to me, would have realised I went through mayhem since the first day of release of results. To prevent me from repeating and whining about it, I will just end it once and for all here.

My Group for a particular module, had agreed not to submit any peer evaluation of each other. Why? The Prof said, should none of us submit, the whole group will get the same grade. So, our group agreed, since we felt each of us had put in our fair share of effort.

On the day i received my results, i was shocked to realised my group project grade was worse than my peers. So i went to email my group, to ask who had submitted the peer evaluation. 5/6 replied they didnt. 1 hasn't replied up to today. So I asked the prof, if he did make a mistake, cos he said that my group had submitted peer eva, but when i asked my group, they said they didnt. SO WHO SHOULD I BELIEVE when both sides are telling me different stories?

And seriously, in my own personal opinion, it's not professional to use CAPS in email, or even exclamation marks like !!. one of ! would be quite offensive, and !! would be worse.

And I dont think false accusations are very right. To me, in the business world, no matter what positions you are at, it doesn't give you the right to false accuse someone.

That being said, i decide to bring a closure to this matter. I know someone in the group lied. I wont blame you, but seriously, please have more integrity, and be more ethical from now on. What you're doing is uncalled for, and it speaks alot about yourself. For whatever you did to me, I salute you. I stuck to my word of agreement and did not submit the peer eva. At least, i was ethical.

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28 April 2010

Although it's someone unrelated to me, but whenever i receive news of people who commit sucide, I just feel so emotional. It's even more saddening when the person is so young, and has a future. I really detest those people who go around hurting others, with their words or actions, that drives people to the brink of sucide. I just can't imagine how hurt their parents and friends would be feeling.

No matter what tough period of times you're going through, please stay strong. Sucide is not the way out though it might feel that way. Everyone, please cherish every single person around you.

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26 April 2010

Dance is enjoyable, not restricted, free to move. Singapore is really UP-ing in the dance scene. I still remember those days when i first picked up dance, there weren't much dance schools to learn from. So me and my friends relied on youtube, and sessions to learn. It was a big switch for me, considering I was a sportsman since primary school, from rugger, to hockey player, to soccer player, to sprinter. LOL!.

I won't forget those times when I was being looked down upon as a dancer. Don't get me wrong, I have learnt to forgive. But those comments are what drives me to improve as a dancer. I remember I was commented as a dancer with stroke. And i remember this particular dancer, who just brushed me aside when I asked him for pointers. haha, he hasn't changed 1 bit, only making friends with dancers who are good, and only exchanging pointers with them. I guess that's the sad part of being a dancer... once you improved, ego is boosted, and your humble mentality all changes to arrogance. I always believed that learning is never ending, and one day those weaker than you will surpass you. i don't see the need to actually look down on dancers who learn slower. Thats a very sad life of you as a dancer.

The more you share, the more you will learn, especially things you never knew you would know. So what if you become famous, do you love dance for what it is? Im glad I have friends who enjoy dance, just because they enjoy. These are the people I respect.

I guess most people are fearful of music, or helpless, because they feel tense. Let your body move. I have had the honour to talk to many humble and good dancers, and learnt a lot from them. Trust me, once the music is switched on, just move your body. Dont have to care what others think, or say. Only then, you will realise what you're capable of. People who are still able to dance, should grasp the opporunity. Im unfortunate not to be able to dance for quite some time.

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Great! Summer is here! I went for an internship interview last week, so i'm currently awaiting for my application results. I thought it was just a face to face chat, but I was tested on Excel and ppt. haha excel I was tested on CAT. But ok lah, im more of a qualitative person.

Reservist in July, i'll probably go with my badly injured knee since im already downgraded. Surgery will be right after that. So all in all, i shldnt dance to my operation date, which should be around August, + recovery till December, means I am not allowed to dance for nearly a year.

I may not be showing it through my emotions, or behaviour, but deep down, nobody knows the frustration and pain im going though except God. I can be bubbly, and support my friends in dance, but not being able to dance does make me sucky and lousy. Of course, i know everything happens for a reason, and my life will turn out well sooner or later. But what if, what if i had not twisted and snapped my knee on that unfortunate day. Dancers, please take good care of your body. one injury can just make u start from point zero again. I can say that, i might even give up dancing at the thought of not being able to dance for one year, and starting from scratch. But dance is too big a thing for me, i've too much passion for it. yes, my 3 years of hardwork may be going down the drain, i may need to start from scratch.

I fear the days where right after operation, my right leg would be like a baby leg, without strength. I fear the need to undergo boring physio, which would train my determination and patience. I fear, the times where i need to be on crutches, and not being able to travel anywhere as and when I want. But no point looking back now. Whats happened has happened. The only thing for me is not to give up.

Why? Cos dance is what I love.

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19 April 2010

Last day of exams! Song boh! hahas after that going to get new com so can l4d 2 everyday! hahahs

Anyway, i kept waking up yesterday night, think too excited about last day, and also cos my knee frickin hurts a lot now, cos i snapped it yesterday while.. WALKING. Seriously, it doesn't look very bright for my knee, and i tink surgery is the only way out now, since i rest for a period of time, and it can even snapped while im walking. Limping to exam hall now.

Tonight got fling! Song bo! I dont want be merlion, and i dont want anyone to be! Lols.

See ya'll!

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Tahan 1 more day! Lai!
18 April 2010

haha every friends of mine is ranting how their exam is over, asking me out for L4d 2. Even when I log into facebook, everyone is posting exams is over. :(

Never mind, after tmr i'll be flying! Hang in there Nikz, one more day!

I've too many things to do after exam is over!

1) Emix chalet
2) Shopping
3) New com
4) L4D2
5) Dance (if i can)
6) Internship? dont know
7) overseas?

haha so many things to shop for seriously. I think i forgot how to go Orchard already. I didnt even know got so many new buildings lah. Ok i need the following:
1) Gangsta` jacket
2) Tees
3) Accessories
4) Bball shorts

And im going to get me new com!! But i think i need to wait for 3 weeks to arrive leh :( means i can only l4d2 after 3 weeks? NO!!!!!!!!!!!!

Internships i planned to do in year 3, but i applied anyway. So just awaiting news. How to intern, when im going for surgery? Doc says crutches 1 month, physio 5 months... :( Cannot dance 6 months is like don't eat carrot cake for 10 years. Lols. Nvm, i shall go for Lyle Beniga's class first! yes! He is coming to SG!! After watching youtube, wondering when woould he even teach in sg, he finally is! Omg la. but can my knee take it? Heck! hahahs.

Anw, I think ive been watching too many korean vids since dunnoe how long ago, and too hooked to Kpop already. Im like living in a world of fantasy. GG. Wakeup Nikz. Lols.

Ok, back to studying game theory, which i thought was a module to play games, but in fact it's not :x

Annyeong!

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10 April 2010

My friends used to told me, "talking it out is better than keeping it to yourself". For months, I could not bare it all, because of a promise I made. But since now im being played in a bastard and bitch game, I will play it.

Remember the first time we chatted, where you said you would notice me if I am not at practice? And you would be so concern and all? Not knowing how time flew, we got together, on a condition: I am not allowed to tell anyone we're attached.

I knew something was wrong, which couple would be so ashamed of being together? However, I guessed I love her too much to care. We had to act like normal friends in front of our common friends, we had to meet in a secluded area before we could go home together, and you just didnt allow me to hold your hands. We never even gone town together before.

I still remember, at the study table, we had to resort to msn and sms, tho we were sitting just beside each other. This, for fear others would know about us, fearing they would befriend you because you're the P's gf, for motives such as running for Exco.

Because you like the wedding dress mv so much, I learn the whole MV within 3 days and video-ed it down live for you, so you could bring it overseas.

I wrote a diary for you, bought mittens for you, ski cap, the cologne you wanted... Was I being too nice? Well, you said I loved you more than you did, and I simply gave so much more than you.

I was so looking forward to your return back to SG, and when you did, you had to break up with me, just saying no more feelings. How mature is that, how responsible is that. Throughout this trip, you knew the 3rd party was going to be persistent on you, yet you went ahead it, and didnt reject him. The pictures says it all. There was never a closure on our issue.

How you were so mushy with him on the trip, and you even extended your trip with him, using your 2 other friends as excuses to make it seem it wasnt a date. Now i know why you initiated a breakup the moment you landed in SG. Everything seems so clear now.

And i can't believe you even went his house already. haha. yes, haha is the word to describe the situation. People may see you as an angel, through the way you behave, and how you dress. But who would know how devious you could be, behind the innocent appearance. There's a lot more stuff i won't say here, because its too ugly to be told. But your appearance certainly dont match how wild you can be. You didnt' want people to know about us, just so you would appear to be the good guy isnt it? Well good for you now,that you're willing to be with a rich guy, who dumped his gf to chase you. Good match.

To the so called guy, im still giving you face by not mentioning your name. You have the guts to woo an attached girl, but not guts to look at me when i see you in school? SHame on you. Now i know why my ex prevented me from talking to you, not because she was afraid you would be ego, but because she felt for you something back then. Anyway, pls brush up on your chasing girl tactics, cos it sucks? And for a guy, who uses his wealth to chase after attached girls, doesnt say alot about your character.

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16 March 2010

hahaa dont know why but im back to blogging.

Can't dance full out sucks, since my knee has been diagnosed with complete rupture of ACL, complex tear of meniscus and posterior horn. Surgery will make my knee different. Months of physio is boring. Scared of relapse, scared i deprove in dance when im just making progression, scared im missing out on competitions, scared i cannot go the NYC trip, scared my whole knee will be useless if i dont go surgery.

Just realised how childish people can be. Age is not what defines maturity, but rather what a person goes through in life. How you behave says a lot abt yourself.
Very impressed with people who appears angelic, and turns devilish within the snap of a finger.

Nic "Nikz" Phua danced away @
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oh myyyyy
08 March 2009

I got home just now, and got a huge shock. I was like, WHATS THIS BIG THING AT MY DOOR STEP!!!! i took a closer look, it was a gigantic turtle can?! goosebumps. My dad tried to catch it but it was so fast and feirce! In the end he managed to, for a good cause. Cos if it didnt had water it wld die...

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Childish Act.
05 February 2009

I just dont understand, its just a sale. Goods go at good prices, and nice goods. So why do people even want to be selfish about this and not inform others about it? Are people so selfish to the extent that they cant even share about sales to their own friends? PLS, GROW UP!

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a Dancy day
03 February 2009

Today was one of the days when i was really touched. Even though i didnt say it, but if my parents were to come and support me in my dance or in anything i do, i will be really touched. So far, they only came for my danceworks competition which was in 2005. Since then, they've been too busy or exhausted. Today, i was youtubing some dance vids from Funkamania 2009, when my mum just came into my room and said, AYE you havent let me see your dance vid leh! haha. i was so taken aback that it took me a few seconds before i loaded my youtube vid of my Gatsby Finals. Then she called my dad who came in as well. Watching the video with them, listening to her comments and praises, i really felt so touched. Even though i didnt perform up to standard, but what ive achieved and gained through the process and experience, it was priceless. I love you Dad and Mum.

Today we did blocking for Friday's Patron Day performance. had fun because this is my first time performing with Emix. It was a fresh experience to be placed somewhere in the front too, but today i was seriously off form. Nothing seems to be going my way, and i cant seem to execute my steps and style even though my heart wanted to. Jiayou Nikz

And i saw this video from DT's nick, and my jaws dropped. Seriously, why did i started dancing at such a late age. Why wasnt i exposed to dance earlier. Why was i playing soccer! Be inspired from watching this video, dont be discouraged pls.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C03v8Ue_vok

Anyway, my status in FB was totally shocked and in disbelif. Im seriously apalled at how some people can end their rships with their partners with reasons like im sick of this rship, i cant cope with this rship, im not ready for a rship etc. Yet within a short span of time, they get into another rship. Irony isnt it? I really pity one of my friend, but im glad he is dealing it well. But as for the other one, ive really no comments.

Anyway, I had a good long talk with Fong just now. Hope time will heal everything. And he really gave me lotsa tips on dance which i appreciate. Thanks man.

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Dont know how to drive dont drive.
28 January 2009

the traffic light at my house area, has always been very dangerous. Cars OFTEN beat the red lights. so this morning, this car honked at me and almost banged me when the red light was shown. Not only was he in the wrong, he stopped his car and stared at me. Of course, i stared back cos he was in the wrong. Such audacity. WEAK

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dissapointment.
26 January 2009

After watching my video in Gatsby dance finals, im wondering how i got 3rd.

My movements wasnt even clear. it was crap.

Eveyrthing i choreo-ed and did in prac, didnt even come out in the finals. I admit i was nervous, cos its my first solo competition, but it wasnt an execuse. it was crap.

Im so ashame to show my friends the video, but i promised to.

Thanks to everyone who encouraged. Props to Bgirl jas for the video.

Nic "Nikz" Phua danced away @
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GONG XI!
25 January 2009

Lol, it was only yesterday that i realised Ryan was an aerobics instructor and he took part in aerobics competition before. LOL!. The way he said it was so funny, when he wore his tight fitting costume and the priceless expression . And he even demo-ed how to do push-ups in a split position. Omg.

Anyway, my nieces and nephews are at my place and kept screaming INKFISH. i was like whats that? Then my sis in law told me that when i was in primary 2, i was asked , " whats a fish that squirts ink?". Answer is Squid right? They said i said INKFISH. LMAOS, since when i said that! But even if i did, i was innocent back then ok. HAHHA

Happy Cny to everyone!

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TV!
21 January 2009

Words can't describe how happy i am now. A message from a tv channel, im invited to dance on tv. God is really making waves in my life. Exciting rollercoaster! Gatsby is really the door God opened for me, from joining the competition, solo, top 3, media, so much more. It is just getting better. Stay tuned!

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Gatsby!
17 January 2009

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16 January 2009

so many of my friends stepped out solo, and now have risen to instructors. from seeing them the first day they were raw to dance, and now to instructors, im so so proud of them. i wanna be an instructor one day too, and impact people's lives.

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Competitions!
15 January 2009

Tomorrow is FUNKA Prelims! To Bizzo, Trademark and RuffJackRepresent, all the best! Do well for FB yeah!

Tomorrow is also my Gatsby Dance Finals at Zouk. I was pretty down a few days ago, suddenly and all of a sudden. I started to question myself, what the heck am i doing, is this even a dance that can make me a champ? Thanks to friends like Raizan, Yee joo, Diane, CK, Jianhao and others who encouraged me and picked me up again. I guess i place too high expectations on myself, and i really wanna do well so badly. But like what some of my friends said, Just Enjoy .

I'll put up a great show tmr, and hopefully, my next post would be " Im the Gatsby Dance Champ"

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The Terminal
11 January 2009

I just caught a movie on Ch 5, The Terminal starring Tom Hanks. He really did a gd job in this movie and so was the storyline. The whole movie was practically revolving around the airport terminal but it was planned so well. Now i know why this movie is rated well. Go catch the movie peeps!

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09 January 2009

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FINALS!
02 January 2009

Gatsby Finals here i come!! Thanks for eveyrone who voted for my dance, i really appreciate the love yo. From the bottom of my heart, thank you! I will do my best for the dance finals!

Because it clashes with Funka prelims, i had to inform my crew members i cldnt join em for the prelims. It felt terrible, but im glad to see them so cheeredup just now! Press on man! Make it a double blessing by me winning and you guys going to finals!!!

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2009!
31 December 2008

And so, the sms-es are coming in, the well wishes, fireworks. 2009, i mean 2008 has just passed! It's time to usher in the 09 year yo!

Looking back on where we've been through... aye nono, wrong frequency.
Looking back on the year 2008, it's been a rollercoaster year yea?

2008
The year my study dream came true. I was not admitted to one, but two universities. I did very badly during my A levels in JC, i retook during NS as a private candidate and didnt do well. It was a very tough time for me. I let myself and my parents down. I was practically at a loss. I went back to poly to continue studying and finally, i made it to University. Thank you Lord. Maybe it was a blessing in disguise, as this was the extra motivation for me to study real hard in poly.

The year i turned 24, but im still young at heart ok! 18 always. LOL.
The year a dance dream came true too, a first production for Foreign Bodies.
hahaa and many more which i cannot think of now.

2009

1. Im going to concentrate more on solo for dance. Many of my friends have stepped up and so must I.
2. haha the year i find a suitable partner? LOL, im gonna be 25 la! i mean 18. lol.
3. i wanna keep in shape and hopefully get at least 4 packs, now only two LOL.
4. I want my family to be safe and sound, and tt includes me, and includes healthy happiness and so on
5. I wish my friends to be well
6. I wanna have a breakthrough in my dance
7. Closer to the Lord
8. The list goes on and on.

haha i can't believed i just watched 3 movies in a row on Ch U. Flashpoint, Volcano High and Rush hour 2. All fighting movies. And yes, im a fan of Donnie Yen. His hands are lightning quick man! Next two movies i wanna watch, Ip Man and Ong bak 2!

I spent my countdown with my parents, but before that we went for a buffet. I wont name the restaurant but seriously, the service sucks. Not once, twice or thrice, the staff kept asking us to pay the bills and check the bills.

ahah my niece and nephew told me so many lame jokes today that i realised i aint that lame afterall. and they are so young. LOL. Sometimes the innocence of a kid is so beautiful, so pure.

Quote of the year: Dont think what others can do for you, think what you can do for others.

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29 December 2008

i havent watched the trailer for bed time story, and i dont even remembered there was a movie for it. But boy oh boy did i enjoy the movie. I didnt know Adam Sandler is acting in it and i love his movies. It was sucha funny movie and touching at times that i would encourage people to watch it. 3.5/5 stars man. go for it. shan't reveal too much here to spoil the movie tho. haahs.

I admit im nice, I admit many times i do give in to prevent trouble. But nice people do have limits, my limits can be very big, so if you can push me over my limit, ure one heck of a person. Dont take me for granted and say things but dont do, walk the walk and not talk the talk. And humans are scary, feelings can change just in a split second. take heed my friends. I can be nasty if i want to, but i dont wish to. Because the nasty me is not a very nice sight, trust me on that.

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Back Injury
26 December 2008

To dancers out there yo, i know sometimes when we dance we tend to use alot of our back muscles. Try to learn to use ur core muscles instead. It may seem tough, but do use it. Back injuries are common among dancers and they can turn serious.

Peace.

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Home Alone, good? bad?
22 December 2008

My parents just made a safe trip back to Singapore today. but my mum just told me that this friday they are going there again, which means i will be home alone for another weekend.

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Blackout
21 December 2008

I was home alone, I switched off my living room lights, BAM! My house was in pitch Black. Thank God the Lord was with me thru the darkness to find my torchlight , and tht my bro-in-law was still awake to teach me how to restore power because he called me.

Blackouts are not fun luh, hurhur.

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FB Post Production!
19 December 2008

haha went for fb post production dinner just now. It was great to see most people again after fb production. Firstly, the awards list

Hiphop fusion East: Djingle

Hiphop fusion West: Not announced

Gender Female: Jasmine Toh

Gender Male: CZ

Street Jazz: Jessica

Popping Bottin:Jiarui

Popping Boogaloo:Evelyn

Punking: Baoxin

Locking:Arjuna

Character: Andee

Ghetto: Veronica

Lyrical Hiphop: Ah ma

Old Sch Fusion House: CZ

Old Sch Bboy: Aaron

Best Showmanship: Andee

Best Male Dancer: Lesner

Best Female Dancer: Tricia

Best Choreographer: Neuh

Best Backstage Crew: Simin

haha there you have it. the winners for each genre. And before they could collect the cert from Jinwen, they had to draw a genre and dance to it. We totally had a gd laugh. Example you see hiphop fusion people dance to street jazz, street jazz dance to character etc. it was very funny. And out of no where i had 2children, Veronica and Andee. i had to re enact the slapping scene which has become so prominent now. For Vern, i did English version. For Andee, i did Hokkien version. LOL. it was so hilarious.

Then we played this game where Jinwen would place an item in the centre, and the 4 different groups have to think what they could do with the items. hahas. First of was the cap. haha i remembered it was used as a fencing mask( my whackiness), half cup full cup, big pimple. Then next up was a bottle. I used it as a hospital drip, grenade, *****. Then a shoe was used as an iron. Tissue used as some silonplast(dont know how to spell), and a book used as prisoner tag, face mask etc. haahs there were so many ideas but i cannot recall now cos there were so many crazy ones. LOL.

Neuh, i remembered the first time we entered FB. But somehow we clicked so well and became sucha mad buddies always laughing at anything and everything. And i remembered your 'girl' solo during our yr 1 fb camp. hahas you were darn sexay and always is. Now you have grew so much to be a choreographer, making formations and taking charge of the Juniors. I cant say how proud i am of you seeing you grow and moving on. Continue to use your talent and never stop despite setbacks ok? Rock on!

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Gatsby!
18 December 2008

see! Bao Bao hugged a hamster toy to sleep. ahahaha

haha i wan a dogggggg

Yesterday was our first funka meeting, i felt things went not bad. But we defintely gotta rush cos not much time is left. And i got a good feeling about funka. so lets jiayous!! And to Trademark and Ruff Jack Rep, Jiayou too ok!!

I caught the chub chub Ian and Sunset Alleycats on tv yesterday. i remembered those days when me rach and david were in fb, and we all were new learners. Now both of em have risen so much and are on tv. I am happy you guys are becoming an inspiration to others.

And yes i got into Gatsby Dance Online voting!! woo!! guys pls vote for me ok! I wanna win the finals and rep Singapore. hahas.

http://gatsby.sg/dance_index.php

pls find vid no. 22 , Nikz Smu.

SHoutouts to all who helped, Peace and Love yo!!! I appreciate from my heart.

Bgirl Jas, Thanks for helping me vid tho u were so busy.
Nick Sim, thanks for the advices and brillant ideas.

Rafi, haha thanks for your whackiness too.

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BBq at Diane's place
17 December 2008

whee! had a great time at Diane's place for bbq for some of the FB people.

Production has really allowed me to know more people better and i mean better. People who i didnt really get a chance to talk much to or knw better, now i do. And the bonding is really sweet. I just hope all these wont end now that production has ended, but it wld continue.

Anyway, first time i bbq crabs today. haha seems fun. and my attempts at bbq-ing chicken wings were drastic. NO PICS. haaahs. but some sweet people like Justin Peng, Andee still eat.

haaha and there so many lame jokes while i bbq. Cos it was very windy, so i told Bev to switch off the fan. But it was actually the natural wind. Bev so pei he my lame jokes she 'tried' to off the imaginery fan. LOL. And Popper Bun just realised i permed my hair after so longgg!!!! haahs.

Then we headed up to Diane's house. SHe got 2 cute dogs can. Snoopy and Baobao. hahas. Now i know why dogs are best friends. I feel so loved when baobao comes to find me or 'act cute' hahaas. i nv knew dogs cld act cute. And one pt of time i was quite sleepy cos it was late, baobao just came to find me like to keep me company la. I want a dogggggggg...

And the rest were mad with Wii. From boxing games (almost smash tv), to bowling ( tyron act sud after strikes), to Yoga. hahaha yes they even played yoga la omggg. haahs. And Fong is a whiz kid at all the games. Always go Diane's house play right. LOL!.

It was a great day. I had fun. Next up FB post production cum xmas party this friday!

Im so nervous for my Gatsby Dance vid i cant sleep well. Pls let me know asap if i did make it plsssss...

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Gatsby
16 December 2008

next 24 hours will be crucial. I really hope that my Gatsby dance vid will be selected to be placed on the web for voting. hope my next post would be a gd news.

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hahah guess!
15 December 2008

haha nothing much, its 4+am and i cant get to sleep! see lah, sleep and sleep now cannot sleep. dope la nikz. hahahas. anyway, i fear ---- so much that i wont want to put in so much ---- for now till i feel the ---- is right. haahahs. guess.

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FB Production
13 December 2008

The candy that was given to us. LOL

Me and Sharon

Me Jiarui and CZ

Me and Raizan. My hand cramp la.

Me and Peng, very hot among girls. LOL!

Me and Nick Sim! One of the k7 guys

Me and Leong

Me and Huda

Me and Karen

Me and Faisal

Me and daughter Diane

Me and daughter Diane

me and ah beng CZ

Me and Cheryl

Are you ready? Really? this is gonna be a long post i promise. LOL!

FB Production FB Production FB Production FB Production

4months + of hard work, 2 nights of show. This was a dream come true for me. I've been to other schools dance productions and always wondered when would it be FB's turn. And this year was the year it came true. The moment i heard there was gonna be a production, I immediately said IM IN. I chose street jazz and lyrical hiphop. Everyday there were different genres practising. And yes, apart from character dance, all other genres were choreo-ed by our very own dancers.

For street jazz, it was a very feeling dance for me, as it related the different struggles a dancer went through like despise, parental objection etc.

For lyrical hiphop, it was also a very feeling song. I can't just describe in words how the dance was like.

There were ups and downs in this FB Production. Tears, quarrels, conflicts, joy. It was not a smooth sailing ride at all. Yet through this all, we were all bonded so much stronger than ever before. At one point of time, Jinwen broke down. That moment, i knew he did a good job and was to his limit. Why ? I have always seen a cheerful him who does so much work with a smile on his face. Never have i seen him broke down before and i was happy for him, cos he has broke through his limit. He had to choreo dance, he had to perform, he had to overlook the whole production and so much more. tell me, how much can a human being take? That's love and passion for dance.

Arjuna, i won't say why i admire her because it's a personal and sensitive issue. But she is one tough girl as well who did so much for this production without showing any sorrow and was always so eager and willing to help.

Rachel, haha what else can i say about this other tough chick? Doing so much, dancing so dope. Trust me, she's really capable in multi-tasking. Respect.

Nick Sim, breakthrough ar. Bottin choreo. You didnt lost the touch bro. Keep going man.

Bgirl Jasmine, You helped us so much for street jazz when troubled brewed. And you were so willing to help us out. Many thanks to you and you really catch choreo at the speed of pentium 4.

Jessica my lifting partner, hee we did it girl! Though sometimes i failed to lift you properly, you always encouraged me. Thanks so much for helping me out.

Huda, haha my buddy. Always so encouraging, cheerful and taking my jokes. Since year 1 until now, you were there. Thanks a million.

Diane, my daughter and lifting partner. haah. You were so cute when i could not bring myself to slap you. " aiya, he ant also never kill before". hahas . you're one cute girl who always makes me laugh. Thanks for being my daughter. Today 2nd show was so much better. When i slapped u as the father, i just felt so pain cos ure one of my friend. And the hug just triggered the tears.

Khye, bro! breakthrough man. Choreo-ed for street jazz and sucha feel song. You're defintely rising to higher levels.

Tyron, I INSIST. hahas you're sucha joker. i have defintely known you better through production and yes you're dope. I INSIST ok. hahas

CZ, pls stop your lame jokes! i have never met someone lamer than me , and thts you! hahas. sexy dolphin right? LOL!!

Karen! hahaa ai seh, u keep crying after lyrical la u. and yes la, u look pretty with hair extensions yeah? lol!

Zac, Azila, Raizan, Nuh, thanks for being my clothing corner khakis ah! haahs always so willing to help me with my clothes and chatting with me, telling me jokes and all. Well done to your respective genres. It's great to see you all starting to choreo and breaking through.

Desmond, Yukun, big Jon and Weixian, the 'old' khakis. ahahs. first time i known u all better as well, apart fro big jon. LOL!. thanks for the great company guys. been great working with you all for lyrical hiphop. really.

Ah ma, hahas always so funny one. first time work with u in lyrical and see your funny side and also ur feirce side. haha!

Juniors, you guys really put in a lot of efforts. Great effort and great expressions while dancing!

And it was great seeing old pals i havent seen for a while like JX, Junkai, David, Bentoh, Yongzhi. Reminescence of our k7 times man.

Before our 2nd show today, Jinwen took the time to thank all of us all. Seriously, we could not take it and most of us teared. And that triggered an even better show. I remembered what Ryan from OSchool said. If you can dance and feel till you're cry, you're good.

It was really encouraging when people i didnt ask for comments came up to tel me about my dance, im improving and i broke thru. And when i did ask for comments, sincere words touched my heart as well. There's more room for improvement but i am happy im progressing thanks to the Lord and friends as well.

Along the way, there were some bigbig issues which i was fustrated about and really feel like blogging it out here. but im gonna hold back and not talk about it because, i want to forgive and forget and move on. But the word i want to emphasize is, RESPONSIBILITY.

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Dance.
08 December 2008

ok la, i know la, i havent blogged for ages la. LOL!

Anway, shoutouts to the Oschool Recital peeps! You guys really did well. And i was inspired by a few dancers.

Gin: The stage didnt eat her up tho she was small sized. Her movements were eating the stage up.

Ryan: What more can i say about your solo and dance. You're an inspiration.

Carol: haha you're back! and still strutting your moves!

An An: haha your groove is sick as it is man. Im so gonna train hard in groove .

And so many many more. It's just sucha great feeling to see more and more dancers in the dance scene, more and more people who loves dance as it is. But sad to say, there are still people who dances for the wrong reasons. Selected for some items, yet giving it up cos they feel they dont lke the style or whatever reasons. Humility is the word alright? Dont give reasons not to dance certain items and yet dance other items. I just cant find the word to describe such irresponsible behaviour.

Anyway FB production is coming up this week. Time flies isnt it? Im so afraid how wld i feel when production ends. I wld suffer from withdrawal syndrome, the laughters and cries, the hard work and squabbling.

Anyway, i decided to try solo in dance. yes first solo. Though i know its gonna be a fresh experience, and i dont know what to expect, but i feel its time for me to step out. Stay tuned.

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You're disguting.
01 October 2008

I thank the Lord for people who love me, who appreciates me, who are true to me and aint two faced hypocrites. I pity hypocrites.

Dont tell me you dont know your work when i ask you because you do get high marks when assignments are returned.

Dont tell me you forgot how to do your work when i ask you because it was only a matter of days you handed in your work. Are you SENILE?

Talk abt selfishness aye? Ive been thru jc and poly. Ive met a lot of people, and i know who are true and who are fake. So dont try to smoke your way through me.

Oh anyway, i cant open my mouth when i see hypocrties like you. It just refuses to open cos you aint worth it.

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BASH!
28 August 2008

haha yst was the SMU freshman's Bash. It was alright i feeel, and kinda cool in fact for a UNI to organise party at a club. There were paegeants, there were dance, and its good to have healthy partying with a bunch of good and reliable friends, tho i saw some unglam stuffs :x

anw, i talked to some of my friends who dont even rmb they did talked to me ahahs. see my point? LOL, but they;re cute la. lols. Anw, will post up pics soon.

Peace

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07 August 2008

PICS GALORE TIME!

Group Army Daze!
I dont know why Salvin is the only one looking away
All set for games!
Ok i was squashed alright!
Help!!

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FTB
02 August 2008

haha im home from FTB run 2. Initially, i thought it's gonna be another camp and i was praying my group would be fun peeps, because they wld lift up the whole atmosphere. And i guess tht was all confirmed during the briefing, where i cld tell some or most of them were really outgoing and fun people, and true enough they were.

On day 1, we started with the ice breakers, making of our flag, get to know each other better, building our own tents. there were many team building games involved which i shant name in order not to spoil the fun for the other peeps who havent gone for it. Lol. But the night game was very very fun tho tiring. And the ghost freaked me out. LOL.

On day 2, everyone was a lil tired due to the first night slping in tents. lol. And we were playing some games of our own like the touch game by serhua, which got all of us going crazy for 3 days when we finallly all got it. LOL. Some other games included hero games, duiduidui, and many others.

Day 3, finale ! But also the best day in my opinion, cos i just love this finale game. And the last part we had to write some comments for each other, i loved tht segment too. Parting was hard and bitter, but we had to go home to sleep lah! haha. i'll post some pics when i get it.

All in all, tiring, but fun. Peace out new friends.

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Blunt
15 July 2008

I am gonna be blunt in this post, but this is my blog so yeah.

I dislike friends who disown friends once they find a partner.

I dislike friends who only look for friends when they need help, else they dissapear.

I dislike friends who find back friends only if they have problems with their partner.

Time is made by yourself. And having to give up friends who are always there for you, who has been there longer than your partner, is kinda ridiculous. Giving up a group of good buddies over 1 person, Ive no comments. You may choose to give up friends for a partner, but think of this, did your partner do the same?

Blunt post? Click the 'X' and move on.

Peace.

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:}
12 July 2008

A quiet day this year, birth.

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Happy ...

Yesterday , iw as sprung a surprise by my colleagues. And i guess, it's gonna be a bittersweet farewell to them when i end work next week. Ive learnt a lot from them, and they are just like a family to me which is why i enjoy working there. But im gonna start school soon, so i wont know if ive the time to continue working there. but if ive the chance to in the future, why not? It's a great place to be in.

After work, me and some of my colleagues and great buddies went out for a while and we really had fun. This was the first time i could spare some time out to be with them and chill, but the after effects were disastrous. LOL

This year bday kinda seem to be a quiet one. No plans no nothing, just a number up

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SMU!
09 July 2008

haha, im really hooked on my bed recently tht I've problems getting out.

Anyway, i went down to SMU today to matriculate and i was expecting a crowd but things went smoothly. The stations were placed clearly and the seniors there were really helpful and thus made things run better.

ahah anyway, i dont know if im gonna be a mountain tortoise for saying this, but today was the first time i tried my hands on a tablet pc because i had to log in to check my particulars. it was really cool, but i heard it is kinda expensive. Guess i'll stick to my lappy instead. LOL.

I guess the funny part would be the photo taking part for my student card. I had to smile at a camera in front of some students and I felt awkward. haha, smiling during normal occasions is cool for me, but during phototaking, i dont know why i get the jitters. LOL. But i must admit the making of the student card with my picture on it, was super fast. I guessed it took just a minute? Yeah! awesome.

After tht, went for a volunteer talk so yeah. Then, i went for this cca exhibition camp where there were various camps like arts camp, sports camp and the different faculty camp. Yea, there is a cost for the camps but I guess it will be worth the price. The people there are really cool and vibrant and Im certainly looking forward to joining the school.

Nikz wants to live on as a bubbly kid, erm, i mean teen, erm i mean young adult. LOL! sunday is the day!

Peace

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:)
04 July 2008

Just went to the doctor this noon to check on my heart. Been getting irregular heartbeats and stuff, but just glad it went smoothly and everything is a-ok. Th clinic is really high class though, havent been to a clinic like this and it's posh. And the doctor, very impressed with how he treated patients and his achivements.

Alright just read up something exciting on the newpaper, Suntec dance 2008 is back! yeah, but im not sure if im able to find my crew mates to join up because the audition is just a month away. We'll see how things goes.

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Back!
28 June 2008

haha i know i know, it's been a long time since i last blog right? LOL. apologies and thanks to all my readers out there ! Sorry for the lack of pics too, i promise for more pics to come yea?

Anyway 2 weeks of reservist is over. First day i thought i wld be alone with just a few friends, end up i saw more friends whom i didnt know was going, and of course i made many new and nice friends. We had great fun learning things and of course many more which are kinda confidential. But friends definitely do make time pass faster, from chatting, to doing crazy things. LOL. Thank you to all.

Was watching some clips on KO night. The way i see the dancers freestyle to music on the spot, and some being so accurate on the beats, it just gives me new inspirations. It looks easy, but try freestyling to a music and you'll know. People say dance is all about letting loose and grooving to the music. What is in your mind when you freestyle? Practice and more practice coming, but of course, i will take care of my back and knee injury.

Peace!

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what a ride.
16 May 2008

what a ride! im not saying what, but try sitting a ride where the car moves left and ride on the road, stop in the middle of a road divider and just switch directions , dont knw how to drive to my destination, oh well, think abt it :)

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NTU!
23 April 2008

Always check if ice are dropping when you're collecting ice from those big machines, else you'll end up like my hand...

Was collecting ice for refill when suddenly this big ice drop down without any warning. I thought it was nothing until my friend told me to look at my hand. I was just disgusted. hopefully the clot would go away.

Anyway, IM SO ELATED TODAY! My friends all told me that they received their ntu posting yesterday night but i didnt. So when my parents came home just now, they didnt said i had any letters. BUt still, i asked my mum if letters were collected and she said no. So when i went down to open the letter box, i saw a NTU letter. Nervous, excitement. As i opened the letter...

IM ADMITTED TO NTU!! WOO!!! PRAISE GOD!!

As some of you probably know, i didnt do well for jc or private candidate, so i went back to poly. my hard work has paid off! Trust in Him!

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Movie review.
19 April 2008

Movie review time! Heard of rule #1? Wanted to watch the movie when it was first released, but time and chances didnt allowed. Hence, i managed to catch it just before it was about to stop screening.

Really cool movie with scary effects, and i mean scary. Scary effects aside, the storyline is absolutely superb. The twist was interesting, like how you feel the movie is ending happily but end up, it doesn't.

Anyway, my saturday plans were ruined cos i slept the day thruout due to insomnia. It sucks, it really does.

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Im back!
17 April 2008

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Merry Christmas!
25 December 2007

hey sup` people! Im back! yea, i know it's been months since i last posted. Been pretty hectic with dance, stuffs and more. So here i am again!

Christmas services were a blast! This is my first time involved in the Church's Christmas production. I remembered those times when i sat in service and watched those dramas, I used to asked God, " When would it be me?". Patience and patience, and this year i did Easter and Christmas. It's really cool to be invovled in something that i was wishing and dreaming for. He indeed makes our visions come to past!

haha so this yr drama, it revolves around a scrooge and his shopping centre. Hence, i was playing the role of a karaoke salesman and a backup dancer for a comical crazy scene. haha. I really got to thank those actors and actresses backstage like Carter, who are really experienced. They guided me along and by watching them rehearse, i learnt a lot too. Jace, the main lead was also very professional. He would get into his own roles even during the backstage area and whenever there was a 'cut', he could just rewind back and act out the scene with the original lines and facial expressions. He is an inspiration. And also, the backstage crew. They are the ones who has been doing the props, doing all the backstage work, and nobody would know cos they dont appear on the stage. But we all recognised their work, we seriously do. They are really humble and i believe, their rewards are stored in the heaven. Jasmin aka boss, also took great care of us. Stern yet encouraging at the same time, she led us through all the rehearsals. Gary, the stage manager for the first time, really did a good job as well. The cues for the lightings and etc, he made it happened. haha and not to mention, I made many new friends and that includes the kids! haha they were really a joy to be with. And i remember how they would come up to me and encourage me in my dance and i really felt heartwarm cos to me, kids' words are genuine. haha and also this boy, Joseph, he's really talkative! haha he cant keep still or quiet for 10seconds, but he's just a happy boy. He never fails to ease my nerves with his talks and jokes and laughter. Every single thing he does, he would laugh. And also another boy called Le shaun, not sure if i spelt correctly, he's also another happy boy. and many many more new friends I made, Audrey, Faith, etc. It has been a great experience, thank you all.

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Tv!
19 October 2007

Just watched an interesting show on Ch5, think its called trading spouses. It is about two families, one who resides in the countryside, and the other in a higher class. So the wife of each family had to swap families and reside in the other families. It was a big change considering a countryside wife had to deal with a higher class life now and vice versa. The final part where both return to their own families was touching. The countryside wife realised that the higher class husband is a guy who never sees fault in himself, a perfectionist. So it is hard for him to admit mistakes and all. When the countryside wife spoke to the higher class wife who seem so strong in the whole episode, she just broke down. The countryside wife felt so pressurised with the husband, and asked how she could handle it. On the surface, she was strong, she tried to deal with it over and over. And when someone finally touched her heart and spoke her inner feelings, she just broke down.I didnt really catch the ending tho. ah!

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